as my saga continues I need to vent,bad,real bad.good news is im feeling pretty good,in fact going to bowling green for the weekend,im trusting my son and buddies to look out for me,i have confidence in all of them too.now the bad news,two words,ex-wife,i live on the home place in a house with the boy who is 20,the wife left about two weeks after I learned I had cancer for the 3rd time.this might sound harsh,but I absolutely positively hate her,about a month ago dad tells her she can come here anytime she wants,cause his names on the deed.we just talked a few hours and I cant get him to understand that I do not want her here for any reason whatsoever,none period.he thinks she should be allowed here to see her son,i say bs hes twenty has his own truck,and shes suppose to be living less than ten minutes from me.she has really put me in a bind and im not giving in,so I told him that in the morning ill call the county and see if I can rent a room near the hospital,for a while,or till I need a nursing home.i cannot stand the thought of her just coming in my driveway just to agrivate me daily,it has had a effect on me mentally,and he wont hear it..tractor part of the story is its the 3rd weekend in august,time for the national tractor pulling championships in bowling green ohio,i live to do this,it gives me drive to watch my son,i sure hope I make it till the 4th week of aug next year....